Just this anthat innit
But I’m still makinpics , pics for peeps ..s’all
How lovely to see
Nature’s great seasonal giants
Sucking in a feed of rain before falls stripping subsequent to summers scorching
Cloud cover comforter
Soon leaves fall like tears mourning past and fearing future
Comfort in color of flame
Late August light draws in/near
Apple bells in gypsy tambourine wreaths tumbling from stalks of trees
Fat ,chubby Rosie rose hips in colonies, a spray, coupled , lone bob and sway in August cool breeze, like a Bruegel painting of social groupings
Super excited about Aberystwyth
Am doing maps of meaning by j Peterson.
Just did introduction to lacan .
Thinks of PhD question ..
Aug23 18:59 Wednesday
My favourite smell is wet tarmac/gravel after it’s rained
The sociopsycology of addiction obsession
Aug 24 19:58 Friday
Another day hoovering carpets.
Somebody heard my name mentioned on the radio.
Thinks of a show..
(I wrote it a while ago but I cannot trust W press)
Aug 28 18:21 Tuesday
On dog walk with Oscar.
Trees with George tomorrow.
6 hours hoovering today.
Working on Pats piece over weekend
Listening to maps of meaning by j Peterson
Aug30 07:17 Thursday
Hav put in enquiries about a campervan on eBay let’s just plan next years fun!
No word from Aberystwyth
Oscar met daisy in the car park
Thinks of moon painting for H
Exercises by the river
Lower back pain
Mist over river looks like steam
The sun rises warm fast
Low atmospheric blur filter. Morning haze, soft light
Opposite, the moon a few zen brushstrokes on a powder blue sky , it’s bottom right disappearing into textured shadow and imagined space
More trees today
Oscars shadow gently bouncing behind mind on the car park tarmac
Light flickers through church yard yews, magic lanterns
Dereks plaice. The only stall on the market.
Aug 31 08:08 Fried egg
Thinks about painting in gloss. The shiny reflective surface brings in external images . Wow!
More bang for your buck as it were
Does it work for dark object next to white gloss surface as well as
Sun rises due east sets due west
The moon and the sun are both out
Cut, paste, post
OMG! A mad day trying to buy a camper off eBay. It’s been going on for at least 48 hours. My seller is bonkers enthusiastic or in some way a grifter.. it was been my dream to be camper , but the red tape?
Also watching the meg trailers again and again . What is it about jaws and then super jaws?
No word from Aberystwyth
Must post tonight as blurb gets lost otherwise. Many a special turn of phrase has been lost due to connectivity failure
@ workshop before work
Did a good bit of writing over we but lost it when batts died. Shame
Working on Pats piece over we fitting together right side . Trying to hone down the crazy quilt
Walked up Linley tree with O . He enjoyed the windy bits I liked the view. That poor old tree is really dead. It won welsh tree of the year 2014 then was struck by lightning
Thinking about Mimi’s painting. Is it sunset or sunrise? Not sure yet
The book club Hoxton..
Waiting to meet a man about selling some Art..
Sadness due to memories of living here, dying here, leaving here..
Once I was in wales this place became a distant worn out page of a torn up book..when I return it all comes flooding back
Greggs Pride hill watching the homeless . 1hour early for dentist appointment .
Last night went well. PC and no booze. Say there sewing and letting others drink. The smell of wine was enough..
Increasingly enjoying the peace that I can create around me. I don’t have to react to everything. Turning thoughts in my mind like shining pennies
Started making an entry the other day but it deleted itself..grrrr
Aberystwyth today in my pink jeep with mum . A visit to the Art school open day at the University.
They were so welcoming and it was as if it were meant to be..
It was so thrilling , sitting in the lecture theatre listening to a lecture, going round the print room , talking to the postgrad students.. the sea view, the black and white tiled floors . A skeleton in the closet.
It was too perfect.
Mum was impressed too
We had chips on the seafront
It’s a beautiful place
Then a drive home and the anticlimax.
A sudden low in spirit. Even a run could not stave it off.. it just made the step down easier.
The decision to complete my education popped into my head with such a relief . (PHD), but the decision cuts and kills all other possibilities. Relationship, family, alcoholism. Scared stuff
By the way the holiday in Spain was great! I drove on the other side, but firstly to be amongst friends was awesome ..
Max died whilst I was away. Oscar has been affected, mum cry’s and still I have not had it affect me..